.

I just want something that's forever...

simplicity.

Now that I have a gist of normalcy back into my life it feels nice. I've been told I'm an individual that is hard to please; I've never denied that fact. It's funny though how the small things in life are what pleases me. For instance, listening to indie music while being curled up with a good book, painting, keeping up with Hayley and the band, Nat King and Sinatra blaring through the house, viewing serene pictures are things I've done in solitude lately but they make me oh so very happy! Life is a trip. Everyday, more than not, I think of how I know this town, this state isn't for me. I've seen different and it compels me to get there that much faster. Where is there? That place that tells me I'm meant to be here, that I am home.

"Keep Calm and Carry On"

learning.

Food for thought:

NOT ONE relationship will make it without the love of God embracing himself upon your life. It is a constant struggle to keep that balance without placing that person above Him, but you must. Not only will it strengthen your relationship with God, but it will bring endless happiness to your relationship. The bond you create is UNBREAKABLE as long as He's there and will shed its glory upon the other elements in your life.

This is why my past never worked out. I never stressed the importance of having my faith a part of my love life. I won't have it any other way now.

As I pray for those before me and their loved ones, I then pray for myself and thank him for allowing me to glorify Him.

81.8% on my TEAS...not too bad but not good enough for me! Haha I'm going back in! My birthday is in 3 days and I'm not quite sure on how I feel about it. I'm thankful to God for another healthy, blessed year but really, getting older sucks. Eh. I'll embrace my age instead of looking at it with a negative aspect this year. 24! WOOOOOO!

bleh.

You would think that I didn't care about my life by the way I act...I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm just burnt out from trying so much with school. My TEAS are coming up in a couple of days and I should be studying my butt off but yet I'm not. I wish I could receive some inspiration and motivation to just push through it, just push through it. Taking encouragement from people isn't working anymore. This is why I always think I need to do things alone. I kind of push myself...and if I can't seem to, I then seek for help through others. I feel like this test can open some doors for me and yet I can't seem to want it so bad anymore. Ateque?????????

I will say this though. I am really going to study today with breaks but I'm going in!!!

Asylum

soaked in sorrow.

While studying, listening to Yiruma. There's a downpour...in my head. I wish I didn't feel so glum.

calm.

I do miss quiet time to myself nowadays. I must admit that I don't get very much of it. Indie music and piano compositions were my escape from all the horrid and stressful elements of life. As I'm writing this, I'm appreciating the solitude. Oh, I miss you New York.

Bryant Park

From all the beautiful places I've seen in New York, this is the most vivid. <3 New York is beautiful even when the sky is crying. The sculptures and columns that are encrusted in the buildings are timeless. Even the way the sun peaks through the trees is an art. It truly takes my breath away.

spiritual.

"Having faith in something you can't see but feel is sometimes the hardest thing. Sin is always going to be knocking at your door in this world. But He has faith in you. He always has."


-me.