Wednesday, March 31, 2010


They say when you die your life flashes before your eyes. This is an image that I'll see. Maybe I am foolish to love my friends as much as I do because they say friends somehow let you down someday. Even if so, I wouldn't give up this moment for anything or anyone. I love my line sisters.

Friday, March 26, 2010


You scare the shit out of me. Yes, I admit that I am scared for once. The only tactic I want to cling on to is to runaway. I'm not ready for any of this...please don't force me. I will go at my own time.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


I see new beauty in rain.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

this is my story.


"Remember when we were together we never turned our backs on each other,
But now that we're separated we can't stand one another."

Lately, I've been wondering how he's doing. Has happiness found him? I am certainly not a provider of that for anyone. I've been through too much shit in my life. I've been thinking about how we started and how effortless it was back then. He vowed that distance wouldn't affect our relationship but it changed it completely. We are not to blame because our intentions were true and we gave it our all these past 2 years. It is true...people show their love in different ways, that we did. I'm sorry you never realized how much it meant to me to be shown love. I'm sorry you felt that all your efforts were a waste, monetarily. You've been a good man to me as I've been a good woman to you throughout the years. Yes, towards the end when I knew I had nothing left to give or offer I made choices that reflected the distress my heart had enough of. I never wanted to be your whole world. I just wanted to be a piece of your life that you appreciated. I realized what different people we had become because our priorities had altered. Last summer made me realize a lot as well. :sigh: something so promising ended with us being strangers. I pray for your happiness and success because since day one I've always been on your side cheering you on. So many things have changed in me, with me that it took certain life events to immerse. I'll see you at the end.

Sunday, March 7, 2010


Spring Break 2010
I'm soo excited for Ktown I can barely stand it!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


I just want this in my mind and soul.

I had a talk with my sister, my biological sister, today about things that's been going on. She gave it to me real. I am no longer lost.