Saturday, February 27, 2010


what. the. heck? Just when you think you know your life pretty reminds you that you are stupid for thinking you were so sure in the first place lol. :)
Nothing makes sense but...


Sunday, February 21, 2010


coffee & literature
see beauty in rain. see beauty in yourself.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


Do I really think that thinly of thine self? Seems it has been one hit after another in life but my dongsengs won't let me get to the bottom. As much as I want to think one way about things, and maybe for my own good, they assure me that sharing our lives together bc of God's will is the best thing that's happened. HE knows what I've encountered and what roads have led me here but sometimes I feel like I am without guidance. I've been afraid to let go of that control because of the unknown but I think it's been a long time coming. Me, Jessica, as a being of this earth have soo much I want to express and experience. It'll never be like my youth group back home and I've aimlessly been looking for a new refuge everywhere I move. I guess I'm afraid it won't be the same as Calvary...

I don't talk about religion a lot because I feel like it's an internal thing, a personal relationship with Him. It's not something to brag or an announcement to voice. No one really knows how I feel about it but I'm ok with that.

As much as my heart tends to care for another, more than I want it to sometimes, I need to value my worth and understand that someone will value it just the same one day. :D Don't you ever feel like your heart is your worst enemy?

I want to be better. A better person, a better leader,a better student, a better sister, just better! I've been too comfortable and I hear it calling me out...

Saturday, February 13, 2010


cuddle with me. kekek

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

let's get it.


When you let your feelings get in the way it clouds your vision.
If you know you deserve happiness...let yourself have it.
Tomorrow is another day and I have loving people all around me <3
Let's live this UP! Let the good times rollllllll ;)

Monday, February 8, 2010


Funny how people like to misconstrue things (sometimes on purpose.) I've become somewhat of a big sister to a lot of people in Orlando. I must admit that it is a weird feeling because I'm so used to people taking care of me hahah. Nonetheless, I love my dongsengs. I think Tina and Hoon are the closest ones I look out for just because we've gotten really close. Because I happen to hang out with a guy, people like to twist things having no lives of their own. I know what it's like wanting some type of guidance when you feel like you haven't any. Though I believe you should seek the Father for that guidance, I don't mind being here for them too. I couldn't ask for a better lil bro and sister <3. I cannot wait until they're grown up telling me how great their lives are and how it's filled with so much joy. I truly want the best for them and I want to protect them from anything negative that's in my power. Hahah so don't mess!