revelation.

Fresh air and peace are what fill my lungs now. As the high times of life with friends can distract you for it fills the empty moments in your day, it does not solve your problems. I have been looking for love in the wrong places for a long time. I realized yesterday that it is His love that I must yearn for. It is His love that I need. He's been speaking to me in my failures and has been waiting for me to open my heart to Him because well...His has been open to me. I'm letting Him guide me with my fists unclenched.

I'm sorry that I had to leave what we had behind. I hope that you will fully understand someday. Thank you for making me realize what I've been missing all my life. I am truly blessed to have been a part of yours.

Now is my chance for self-healing. Learn from recent lessons. I am realizing so many things in the last few days. No matter what though, I will ALWAYS carry my dignity, be faithful to the ones I love, and be true to Him.