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"If you want something, be prepared to work harder than everyone else." --Victor Kim

Inspired. Thank you.

revelation.

Fresh air and peace are what fill my lungs now. As the high times of life with friends can distract you for it fills the empty moments in your day, it does not solve your problems. I have been looking for love in the wrong places for a long time. I realized yesterday that it is His love that I must yearn for. It is His love that I need. He's been speaking to me in my failures and has been waiting for me to open my heart to Him because well...His has been open to me. I'm letting Him guide me with my fists unclenched.

I'm sorry that I had to leave what we had behind. I hope that you will fully understand someday. Thank you for making me realize what I've been missing all my life. I am truly blessed to have been a part of yours.

Now is my chance for self-healing. Learn from recent lessons. I am realizing so many things in the last few days. No matter what though, I will ALWAYS carry my dignity, be faithful to the ones I love, and be true to Him.

4pm

Every thing in my being is telling me to withdraw and put up walls with everyone. I trusted you. If this is what sisterhood is really about...then I don't want any of it.

change.

There are definitely things that I dislike about myself. So...starting today I will work on bettering myself for myself. In all honesty, Kappa has raised my expectations regarding the person I want to be. I want to be the best.

As simple as they may sound, I lack in them.

Ingredients:
*Be punctual
*Be goal-hungry
*Be more reliable
*Be up for any challenge I find worthy
*Be more responsible


[normally I'm not into feet but isn't this design awesome?!]

Lost for words...

People that possess so many talents are just intriguing...my <3 will always be Robert Pattinson's but damn Jay... @_@

http://twitter.com/jaybumaom
http://www.youtube.com/user/jayparkaom

10.20.01

No matter what doubt I try to throw at you, you always try to make me a believer. We know it's bigger than us...it's about Him. You remind me that we're a team even though I know you don't have to be there...that friendship would be enough. I'm sorry for my stubbornness and the difficult repercussions of my past. Thank you for your patience.

Thank you for being my voice of reason, my motivator, my laughing gas, my butterflies, my singer, my best friend, my different.

fantasy land interrupted.

I've been swallowed in comfortableness and I don't like it. Isn't it so simple to get lazy and lethargic in the summer. While Fridays are days people begin to wind down, it's my day to start putting things into play.

1. Start my TEAS exam preparation
2. Narrow down apartments/houses
3. Finish reading Wuthering Heights
4. Choose classes for the fall
5. Clay molding
6. Set new goals once these are complete

Thank you for making me smile every day.

3:50am

So...everyone is asleep and I'm mixed with random emotions right now. I have to admit that I feel a bit emo and quiet. I don't know what God's plan is for me anymore, not that I ever did but I always thought I had a little clue. :sigh: I'm starting to lose hope but I refuse to accept defeat. In a way, until I was 19 my life seemed simple and pretty much planned the way I saw fit. After 19...my world has gone upside down and in directions I never saw coming. But that's life, eh? What's my destiny? What am I meant for?

[how awesome is this!?]
As a whole though, I feel like parts of my "self" has evolved. My heart is full, something that is foreign to me. I've learned to address conflicts in a adult manner, though I have to confess that it's a struggle every time. I'm still adapting to live for the moment and stop planning SO much for the future because without enjoying the journey to your goal you're already not living. I'm smarter about relationships and not giving my heart so easily. Being strong.

Here's food for thought
"We want God to change our circumstances, but God wants to use our circumstances to change us."

totally.

beauty.

What a beautiful day it is outside today. ^_^