moments.

They say when you die your life flashes before your eyes. This is an image that I'll see. Maybe I am foolish to love my friends as much as I do because they say friends somehow let you down someday. Even if so, I wouldn't give up this moment for anything or anyone. I love my line sisters.

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You scare the shit out of me. Yes, I admit that I am scared for once. The only tactic I want to cling on to is to runaway. I'm not ready for any of this...please don't force me. I will go at my own time.

surprise.

I see new beauty in rain.

this is my story.

post-it.

"Remember when we were together we never turned our backs on each other,
But now that we're separated we can't stand one another."


Lately, I've been wondering how he's doing. Has happiness found him? I am certainly not a provider of that for anyone. I've been through too much shit in my life. I've been thinking about how we started and how effortless it was back then. He vowed that distance wouldn't affect our relationship but it changed it completely. We are not to blame because our intentions were true and we gave it our all these past 2 years. It is true...people show their love in different ways, that we did. I'm sorry you never realized how much it meant to me to be shown love. I'm sorry you felt that all your efforts were a waste, monetarily. You've been a good man to me as I've been a good woman to you throughout the years. Yes, towards the end when I knew I had nothing left to give or offer I made choices that reflected the distress my heart had enough of. I never wanted to be your whole world. I just wanted to be a piece of your life that you appreciated. I realized what different people we had become because our priorities had altered. Last summer made me realize a lot as well. :sigh: something so promising ended with us being strangers. I pray for your happiness and success because since day one I've always been on your side cheering you on. So many things have changed in me, with me that it took certain life events to immerse. I'll see you at the end.

ATL

Spring Break 2010
I'm soo excited for Ktown I can barely stand it!

wreckless.

I just want this in my mind and soul.
I had a talk with my sister, my biological sister, today about things that's been going on. She gave it to me real. I am no longer lost.

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what. the. heck? Just when you think you know your life pretty well...it reminds you that you are stupid for thinking you were so sure in the first place lol. :)
Nothing makes sense but...
autequé?

vision.

coffee & literature see beauty in rain. see beauty in yourself.

Him.

Do I really think that thinly of thine self? Seems it has been one hit after another in life but my dongsengs won't let me get to the bottom. As much as I want to think one way about things, and maybe for my own good, they assure me that sharing our lives together bc of God's will is the best thing that's happened. HE knows what I've encountered and what roads have led me here but sometimes I feel like I am without guidance. I've been afraid to let go of that control because of the unknown but I think it's been a long time coming. Me, Jessica, as a being of this earth have soo much I want to express and experience. It'll never be like my youth group back home and I've aimlessly been looking for a new refuge everywhere I move. I guess I'm afraid it won't be the same as Calvary...

I don't talk about religion a lot because I feel like it's an internal thing, a personal relationship with Him. It's not something to brag or an announcement to voice. No one really knows how I feel about it but I'm ok with that.

As much as my heart tends to care for another, more than I want it to sometimes, I need to value my worth and understand that someone will value it just the same one day. :D Don't you ever feel like your heart is your worst enemy?

I want to be better. A better person, a better leader,a better student, a better sister, just better! I've been too comfortable and I hear it calling me out...