Him.

Do I really think that thinly of thine self? Seems it has been one hit after another in life but my dongsengs won't let me get to the bottom. As much as I want to think one way about things, and maybe for my own good, they assure me that sharing our lives together bc of God's will is the best thing that's happened. HE knows what I've encountered and what roads have led me here but sometimes I feel like I am without guidance. I've been afraid to let go of that control because of the unknown but I think it's been a long time coming. Me, Jessica, as a being of this earth have soo much I want to express and experience. It'll never be like my youth group back home and I've aimlessly been looking for a new refuge everywhere I move. I guess I'm afraid it won't be the same as Calvary...

I don't talk about religion a lot because I feel like it's an internal thing, a personal relationship with Him. It's not something to brag or an announcement to voice. No one really knows how I feel about it but I'm ok with that.

As much as my heart tends to care for another, more than I want it to sometimes, I need to value my worth and understand that someone will value it just the same one day. :D Don't you ever feel like your heart is your worst enemy?

I want to be better. A better person, a better leader,a better student, a better sister, just better! I've been too comfortable and I hear it calling me out...